My Covid Chronicle Part 2

“When You Can’t Go Home” (2nd week of February 2022)

We must remember when praying to God that He is not an ATM; we can’t just, ‘take,’ as in pray with our demands, rather we must make a ‘deposit,’ first. I always start a prayer with thanking God before I make any requests known to Him. Today, my prayer life felt as if my debit card pin would not work when I entered it. It read, ‘error, instead of, “Hello, God.” I couldn’t tap in, communicate or even initiate the conversation with the man upstairs. But why?

For almost two weeks straight I have seen the inside walls of a hospital as a patient and now I am too unwell and too physically unable to go home. I must accept that I am going to an inpatient rehabilitation hospital due to being a high fall risk and unable to walk or care for myself on my own due to my mobility limitations. How did I get like this in less than a week’s time?

I wish I had an answer or a reason. One thing about me is that I love the knowing of, ‘why,’ to pretty much everything except when the ‘why,’ is an answer you to do not want to hear in this case or cope with. After a tough phone call I received, I suddenly had many tears fill my eyes instead of fear settling in. I got sweaty and panic like at the warp speed of how it all seemed to me. I was told that I would be an hour away from home for a length of time that was yet to be determined. I felt broken and so very vulnerable. I utilized the hospital’s spiritual services and talked it out right away with the Chaplain, who by the way was an angel in disguise to me. He listened and before we finished talking managed to make this completely shattered woman feel whole again for a few minutes and smile.

At the moment I am writing this entry, I am still awaiting to see the neurosurgeon to find out if surgery will be necessary to treat my condition and improve my quality of life. I will let you know the outcome.

Stay tuned for Part 3, the last entry from my Covid Chronicle.

Sometimes the sunrise is the only ray of hope you have in a day.
Flowers from home to brighten my day.

*These (Covid Chronicle) blog entries are out of my notes taken while at home, in the hospital and during my rehabilitation stay that I took down on paper at the time in my journal. The entries may read different from my usual blog entries.

Published by MultipleSclerosisMamaB

This is my blog journey in writing of my experience living with Multiple Sclerosis since I was diagnosed at age 29 in 2009. My journey is not just wrapped up in my diagnosis and chronic is so much more. I am a daughter, wife and mother. I have created this blog to share all I have learned living with MS. Documenting all my experiences, highs and lows. How I juggle living day to day. My prayer is that this blog helps touch one person's life who is living with this disease or any chronic illness. I will share how my faith is now my strength. No matter where you are at in life....this blog is also for anyone looking for inspiration. I hope you will join me on my journey.

One thought on “My Covid Chronicle Part 2

  1. I wonder…when you reread your notes, see how far you have come (overcome) – do you see the Hand of God in this? I do. When you share these thoughts filled with fear, pain & not-knowing the outcome at that time – you still had the strength to persevere. You had the power to push thru this. You are an Overcomer. Thank you for sharing this. I pray it will be a source of encouragement for many others who face these trials. In Jesus’ Love and mine, too, shelly


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